Past depression poems, absolute silliness with something serious, suicideI've stumbled across terrible poems Vel wrote when she was probably at the worst of her depression. When I say terrible, I don't mean it's poorly written, on the contrary, she has a … way to convey desperation. When I say "terrible", I mean "shit, this person could have committed suicide" and I am glad she didn't.
And at the very same time I am listening to a very feel-good album literally called "POSITIVE ATTITUDE" and I started singing what I was reading and OH FUCK the cognitive dissonance is so hilarious I'm sorry but LMAOO chezmonplaisir.bandcamp.com/album/positive-attitude
Oh boy I'm scrolling through my past pictures from like 2 or 3 years ago and, I don't even feel dysphoric. I was such a… womanly woman lmaoooo?!? But That's not me anymore. I just think I was gorgeous too at the time. Damn
plural shitI wanna have my own, distinct identity from my host y'know. I want it to be visible. I want people to see me and think "Oh, that's Eli! Hey buddy" and not see me as Vel or a woman x_x
pluralité tkt j'suis zarbJe suis même pas sûr de comment me saper là. J'ai des fringues de butch. Mais j'ai envie d'être un femboy et un daddy en même temps. AAAAA
pluralité tkt j'suis zarbC'est une première depuis longtemps mais je vais sortir en tant que gars là ? Ça fait bizarre d'être un mec dans un corps de meuf, c'est le comble ça quand même
pluralité tkt j'suis zarbJ'ai refait notre side cut et j'ai rasé les petites pattes sur les côtés. Je crois qu'elle va me tuer parce qu'elle avait l'air d'y tenir mais heuuu… Bah j'avais envie de les raser moi mdr
